Mental, Mental, Chicken Oriental

April 30th, 2006

So, OK, I came back to the UK, and NO-ONE was squatting in the streets and shitting, or klacking and sweeping Mah Jong tiles, and bicycles didn’t out number cars, and cars weren’t snarling and cutting unpredictably across adjacent lanes (disputable -ed), NO-ONE was carrying bundles of chickens bound around their feet, or monotone whistling while they held pissing babies above cracks in the pavement, hunched slurping over noodles, dolloping large clenches of phlegm thereabouts, or staring at me like I was an escapee from the orang-utan house, or a walking amalgamation of passport, dollar and giant phallus. And not one fucker said Hellloooo! and then scampered away giggling. And there were all these round-eyes absolutely EVERYWHERE! Thus goes the template for the Reverse Culture Shock blog that the returnee laowai is obligated to write. It’s a bigger spin says the stubbly receding Canadian with the rigidly shelved forehead, his dinky Leshan girlfriend rubbing the hairs on his fore-arm and staring into the smug face of a syphilitic gorilla. You expect yourself for the bicycles and the spitting and all the Chinese. But going back is different. You don’t get ready for going home, do you? You’ll find out. Write about it. Put it on your blog.
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2 Excerpts

August 1st, 2005

The following are extracts from blogs that I have encountered. Dear God, this is why I was worried about the loneliness of the long - distance blogger. It really is the worst kind of sixth-form poetry, a strong example of a muddle as opposed to a mystery, with a well thumbed thesaurus by the deskside. Shoot me if I should display such symptoms of rabid poeticising. Got to be a joke.

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Extract 1: Of Venice
They say there is a place between Heaven and Earth.

I have seen none of it.

I sit by the water; I see the laughter from below. God smiles upon us, drawing us closer to him, while we seek the depths of our soul, ever-steeped into tangents, our salvation bending, as if we were a branch, and the beast of relativism with his relentless fangs and his labyrinthine smile, crushes us, snapping our backs, as if we were only lacquer to be coated to his divine fur.

However, this place brings patience and consequence. In the far heavens, a rain cloud gathers and drops herself on a corner of the sea. The boatmen, like all boatmen, talk amongst themselves, in the way only boatmen can. There is a little breeze, a jovial pint of sea salt with a touch of a mandolin. Longs shadows pontificate on their existence, rising and falling with the coming dusk.

Extract 2: Of China

The streets are quiet, hushed. Like a patter of rain, the sounds of rolling wheels and a light breeze through the trees. The clack-clack of keyboards, the random sick cough, and the squeal of an old bus coming to a stop, the doors rattling open, and the sound of a paint chip falling to the ground.

The memories pass - across the mind, a wave of nausia at first, and then a song. In the memories, the sky is clear like glass, the sun and clouds above the thin sheet separating reality from fiction - and an old man with a cane totters beside a community park. He is wearing a blue hat, and he turns up from the ground and stares hard into my face. He is a wrinkled man, with cheeks burned by the fires of history and eyes that have tasted the grime of the earth. In my memory, I smile at him - a folded smile, as if it were a toll I had to pay, and his mouth opens into teeth and a broad grin. As I walk past him, his figure blurs into mist, and when I turn back I can still feel his happiness, as if it were a spirit hovering while the body has disappeared.

I see bikes outside the window. Wagon-bikes, sport bikes, motor bikes, garbage bikes, speed bikes, dirt bikes, police bikes, silver and black and red, smudged by spots of dry mud; they lean against curbsides, old bricks, white tiled walls, and lightpoles. The people walk by, the mother with one small bag of groceries, the man carrying a white sack of grapes, the pair of girls holding hands, and the older woman across the street selling socks, shoe fillings, and toy trinkets. I forget the memory, reclaim it, but decide that more will come and release it.

An Apology For Blogging

August 1st, 2005

I’ve always had a downright disregard for blogs. Some detail verbatim the acts and occurences of their daily life, and their reactions to them, as if they are the only person who has eaten a hamburger or been late for work or watched a particular television programs. Though this is naieve and annoying, it is a blessing compared to sophisticated bloggers who know we all live the same lives but feel that their sensibilites provide far more insight into life’s various mysteries and banalities, and egotistically believe that they can make you accept their perceptive dissection of day-to-day experience as your own, and resultantly imbue you with greater self - awareness. The waves of blog - parodies mocking the trivial, self-important pretension of the average Joe Blogger have had quite an effect of me.

The e-mails at the start of my trip were many and personalised, they became general and addressed to larger groups, and now I think its fairly obvious that they’re just one-off, impersonal discourses. But as long as China’s still got interesting things to offer up, and everyday it invariably does, then I’ll write it up. Hopefully it is interesting to anyone at home who reads it, while it is also enjoyable to put down my thoughts on the page. It should also keep me in contact with peeps from back home, although it feels more and more like a one-way thing.

I might do well to look back at the well-meaning hypocrisy of this despatch while I am preparing the tenth draft of went to work… then the gym… watched big brother… in six months time.